A few of you may have noticed that tumblr has been going a bit crazy today and often loads up the dreaded “Error” page but at one time it also did something very strange, it was like tumblr gave us a glimpse of our past on tumblr. It was a strange moment because as I checked my dashboard and looked at my follower counts, liked posts, posts etc. They all dramatically decreased to what they were a few days ago. This reminded me of how once in awhile, I would get a sudden flashback about a point in time back in the past due to a certain event. Tumblr glitching up was the event that gave me a glimpse of what my tumblr used to be like and made me realize that I also wouldn’t have appreciated it as much as I do now at this moment, I wouldn’t have appreciated how far I’ve gone since then.
We can’t remember everything that we’ve done, we just weren’t born that way that’s why we are able to forget most things to make room for the new memories
and experiences that we will encounter in the future.
As a result of this, try thinking to yourself about What you did a week ago today.
Do you remember what your outfit was?
What socks did you wear? Which shirt did you wear?
Do you remember the details of what you did? What conversations you had? Who you met?
If you’re struggling a bit, that’s normal because people do forget these details. They also forget details of themselves, how they’ve changed in terms of their perspectives, beliefs, values etc. Because these details often Overwrite each other; for example, you wouldn’t really think about what you wore to work a few days ago today because that was a few days ago, those clothes are dirty now and you’re going to wear a cleaner outfit anyways. These details are also often overwritten by the bigger picture such as if you were socially awkward before but are now more extroverted, you would remember being socially awkward but you wouldn’t remember all the details on how you got to where you are now.
Due to forgetting the details, we can start to believe that we actually haven’t changed THAT much from our past but really we have, we just don’t remember.
I remember though, to a certain extent, because I want to; I want to see how I’ve grown as a person when I look back at it in the future. So ever since I was little
I wrote in a journal about what went on during the day and recorded the details down. Yet it did get to a point where I went on a hiatus for a few years before going back to it, I wish I hadn’t done that because I’m very interested in reading about those years when I was still in the preteen phase, unfortunately I only have pictures and nothing more.
Do I regret this though?
No because this taught me to keep writing in the journal so that I would never have to wonder about what I did in a certan span of time again.
Reading your journal and looking back on your life is basically reading your life story, where you get to see your own character developement, all the hardships you had to go through and how you triumphed over them and experience any feelings described to the fullest extent because you’ve felt them before.
This story is one of its kind, there are no others like it in this world as it is unique, it is a personalized story, it is your life story. So don’t wait for a flashback to appear, write your own story, that way you can always have a flashback when you want and where you want.
I’ve got my pen and paper.
Now let’s keep on writing.