There are so many religions in our world, each with their own deities, codes and beliefs. However at the same time, a lot of religions have many things in common which led me to wonder (with some help) about what if all the deities/gods were playing a game together and we were the pawns and pieces? What if the reason why there are so many religions, aside from different cultures and what not, is due to this game that they are playing. A game that is a contest of sorts where it ends when “everything” ends.

     What I mean by ”everything” is the dimension that we are in, whereas the gods/deities keep a close eye from the safety of their dimension. Since, when “everything” ends, we can assume armageddon has arrived.    

     As such it serves as the deadline for this game that they play where it’s main goal is to see how many worshippers each can obtain before armageddon arrives. Also, they are not allowed to directly appear before their potential followers to influence them aside from certain exceptions.

    If this were the case and this was the main reason why we are here in this world, then wouldn’t this be the meaning of life? Perhaps but if it truly is, then maybe that’s why it was kept a secret since being alive because you are needed to help win a contest does not sound like the greatest purpose to live for, hence maybe that’s why we have so many other thoughts as to what is the meaning of life since if this one is true, then it surely is a boring reason to be alive.    

    But then again, I lay no claims as to whether or not this is the meaning of life or if the gods actually play this game; it’s just a thought that crossed my mind and I wanted to share.

       I really don’t see how some people could be worried or stay worried about everything when just being worried about one thing already feels exhausting to me. Whatever it is, whatever the problem may be; it just sticks out in your mind like a sliver when you worry. It wrenches your heart, it saps your energy and it floods your body with stress. It doesn’t feel good at all and I’m sure it’s not good for your body either but yet some of us can be hooked on being worried all the time.

       Are we naturally self-destructive? Or is it because some of us have forgotten how to live without worry?

       I don’t want to have to worry in order to live or get through my day, it’s just too exhausting, I’ve got better things to do than place my energy into these negative emotions.

        Every person, due to how they’ve been brought up and how they’ve lived their lives would have had their own perceptions of the world and on everything else that lies within it. However, these perceptions which allow a person to see the world is not always accepted nor shared by other people. Yet that does not mean that what they perceive is wrong and  nor does it mean that what other people perceive is right.

Inside my backpack are at least 2 to 3 apples all the time because I just wind up forgetting about eating them. Perhaps it’s because they’re buried underneath my books and papers so whenever I open my bag I never notice them because “Out of Sight, Out of Mind” right? OR it’s because I’ve gotten bored of eating just apples as fruits….

But regardless of what it is, I need my daily servings of fruits. And apples fall under that category very easily. Remember that old saying?

“An apple a day keeps the doctor away”.

 But this picture helps too.

I was reading an interview done with a role model of mine and it got me thinking about being anonymous. This thought came into my mind because the other interviews I read before today, she had always talked about how she’s doing her best to live a normal life and how she wishes to have Anonymity. Today’s interview was no different.

Now within everything that makes up my “life”, I feel that I am well known to a certain extent. However, even if I feel that I am known within a network of people at school and in this city, the reality of it is that there is a bigger world out there.

This bigger world extends beyond the walls of my school, beyond the limits of the city I live in. And in this bigger world, they could care less about who I am and what I do.

In this bigger world I have Anonymity, the one thing that my role model actively pursues.

Interesting how me being the one looking up to her, I have what she wants the most…Funny how things work in this world.

I am grateful for the experience that I have gained up to this point. Experience from work, from school, from life; experience from everything as it has helped shaped who I’ve become. Even though at the time of gaining the experience there must have been hardships and moments where I wanted to give up but gaining the experience now, I’m so grateful that I pulled through.

I am grateful that I have my family to support me in whichever direction I choose to go or have chosen to go because they understand that my life, my dreams may be different than theirs. But that’s okay.

There are things that I take for granted in my life, some small and some large but regardless of their impact I still took them for granted. And then one day when they are finally gone that’s when I realize what I’ve lost. I don’t want to take things for granted so easily, I want to embrace what I have so that I can become even happier than I am right now.

So here’s to the start of my Gratitude Posts where I will do my best to write one thing I am grateful for each day.

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I am grateful that I actually have a lot of things in mind I’d like to pay gratitude towards, hence why this has started.

Tumblr truly is a wonderful creation. It is wonderful because of how it can give you a better glimpse into what a person is all about rather than checking out their facebook. Sure, facebook shows what’s going on in someone’s life, what they looked like a few years ago and how they’ve changed in appearances. However, with Tumblr you see what actually interests the person, what goes through their minds and what are their thoughts.

Yes, I am comparing the two but I’m not saying which one is the best. Both are great yet they have their own purpose. Tumblr isn’t the best to be used for having a conversation  and facebook isn’t the best for finding out more about your interests.

It’s just I don’t see why some people hate one and love the other when they’re both wonderful creations with their own purpose. Yes, they have their pros and they have their cons but nothing is perfect.

Just enjoy what they are and if it wasn’t what you wanted then stop using it, no one needs to hear about how much you hate either one because the people you preach it to on those sites do not hate it like you do cause the fact that they are on those sites is because they Love those sites.

You know when you’ve had the most awsome time doing something, it is just the greatest feeling in the world but when you’re asked to describe it, it’s as if no words could adequately describe what you’ve been through.

Thing is though, what if it was meant to be this way?

I mean the reason why you can’t adequately describe it to another person is because that experience is Very Subjective. The degree of happiness or awsomeness you’ve experienced is only a result of how YOU have lived your life up until that point. The combination of events and experiences which in turn gave you the reason why the recent experience awsome is unique only to you as no one else can or will go through EXACTLY what you have.

So, if this is the way it is, you might as well spend less time describing how awsome it was and more time on describing what was going on. That way, people can generate their own feelings on the experience.

Driving on the slush filled streets today only went to show that even though there was no snow impeding my driving, the dirty slush and water could instead. Now it’s not that it bothered me too much but then who likes it when their clean car is dirtied again?

But this isn’t a post about how I hate it when that happens, this is about a thought I had while driving.

The Road. Symbolically and metaphorically can represent a person’s path in their life or life itself.

Now while driving on this “road”, it is not always as clean as we wished it to be. There are bumps, cracks and potholes. There’s dirt everywhere, there’s mud and all kinds shit littering your way. However, there are smooth patches, there are clean parts of the road where its just smooth sailing all the way….at least until the next crack shows up.

But regardless of what the road conditions are, whether good or bad, we still pull through. If you’ve ever driven a car then you’d know that no matter how dirty the road is, how cracked up and uneven it may feel, so long as its there and you can get to destination, then that’s all you need.

We pull through all the shit that’s on the road, if we can do that, then we can pull through all the shit that comes up in our lives.

No matter which path we take.