So if you have my facebook then you’d know that a few days ago I ran into a jaw-dropping, awkward moment which actually doesn’t happen too often (knock on wood).

But what happened was that as I perused the internet, this one harmless website popped up with an attention seeking sidebar on its right. Now, being a guy it is true that we will check out girls (if you haven’t realized it by now), so me saying that it was the Flashing Neon Text saying “SEXY GIRLS” was the only reason for me to notice the sidebar and not the pictures of the girls would be a total lie.

So I glanced over and that’s when the jaw-dropping, “Awkward Moment” occurred. It happened because I realized right then and there that one of the girls was someone that I knew….I mean what are the chances of that?

Just so you know, the above photo is not the girl, but she had something similar.

Have you ever had that moment where you met someone or saw someone and it instantly triggers off that mysterious feeling of… “Where have I seen them before? Why do they look so familiar?”

Well recently at work there was a new girl and for some reason she looked like someone I’ve seen before; she looked so familiar but I’ve never met her before that day. And it was just nagging at the back of my mind until I remembered this TV show I watched recently.

The girl at work looked like Lyndsy Fonesca (AKA Alex) from Nikita. 

Mystery Solved!

I am grateful that I am able to goto School even though there are days that I think otherwise. But I really am Grateful as School not only provides new insights (from time to time), it also provides an environment that I can have fun in and spend time with my friends. While I may dislike it for a moment some days, that’s all it is, a moment and then I go back into School.

I am grateful for the experience that I have gained up to this point. Experience from work, from school, from life; experience from everything as it has helped shaped who I’ve become. Even though at the time of gaining the experience there must have been hardships and moments where I wanted to give up but gaining the experience now, I’m so grateful that I pulled through.

So recently I’ve finally begun watching “Lost” even though the series has already ended, kinda late hey?

Not really though because now that all the episodes are out, I don’t have to sit around and wait to watch it every day nor do I have to time things around watching it.

What’s also nice about not watching it on TV is that you don’t need to sit through the commercials nor find some small activity to do for 5 mins as you wait for the show to come back on.

I mean imagine they did the same thing when you were watching a movie. They schedule in a commercial right as the good parts are coming up in the story, wouldn’t that just ruin the moment?

Maybe I’m demanding but if I can watch an episode in 45 mins rather than spending a whole hour, then that’s 15 mins I can devote to something else.

School has always taught us time management right?

Well here I am, managing time.

One of my professors was commenting on how nowadays people aren’t “in the moment” of the situation anymore due to the technology we have. We text and we use our laptops but what brings us out of the moment the most is our music players.

With our mp3’s and iPods, we have our own background music while walking the world. So if we’re on a bus and it’s dead quiet, being in the moment would mean sitting through the silence. But if you put in your music, you create a much more entertaining moment….even if you’re just sitting there.

Therefore, Music, we do use it to get out of the moment a lot but it’s because the “new” moment we create winds up being more entertaining than what we were in before.

Walking through the halls of school, people running by, thoughts flying past; everything began to fall into place.

And then for a fleeting moment of self-doubt I thought…

What if that situation happens again?

What if those reactive feelings spark up one more time?

What if……

I stopped.

I stopped thinking about it because all those things happened back in 2010; it is now 2011. Sure I may not have changed so much from then but regardless of that, I have changed in some way.

And I just about dug up what should have stayed buried. Just about….

But this time, those thoughts are buried for good; what happened in 2010, stays in 2010.

Walking through Crossiron mills today I couldn’t help but notice the crowds of junior high and high school kids. Just seeing them pass by brought back a nostalgic feeling; it feels just like yesterday that I was with my friends going boxing day shopping for the first time.

However, that time has past. I’m not as young as them anymore but I’m not as old as the adults either; I’m stuck in the middle, in the present with my friends.

Where we are, we see the reminders of our past and hints of our futures while we possess the best of both worlds; the freedoms of an adult matched with the immaturities of a child.

We are in the Present.

Satisfaction - it is the feeling one feels after being able to accomplish a set goal and is happy with it’s outcome.

A moment where to me is when you don’t care about your past mistakes anymore as well as not having any speculations as to what you want to happen in the future. Instead you are just content with living in the present moment, you have reached a state of inner peace.

It is moments like this that come after I’ve achieved my goal and my mind is blank to any other goals.

It’s not that I don’t have other goals in mind though, it’s just that this moment is like a pit stop. It is a moment where I can reflect on my own achievement; I can take in the moment, breath, feel happy about it and enjoy it before heading out again.

With all good things, they don’t last forever. This moment is of no exception as it only lasts for a short while before my other priorities and thoughts flood over the great feeling.

It is after achieving my goals and expanding my comfort zone that I really feel satisfied the most however it doesn’t take a huge event to give me satisfaction. Something as simple as working out or listening to a great song provides it as well, only it won’t be as powerful.

Either way, Satisfaction is satisfaction, it doesn’t matter what you did to obtain it.

What matters is how long you will be feeling it before you have to go out and obtain it once more.

Arriving at the public parking lot yesterday at school, I headed straight for the parking meter noticing that there was a piece of white paper in the “Print out” slot for tickets. I overlooked it as it didn’t clue into my mind as to what it was until I put in my $5.00 for parking.

Yes, that white piece of paper was a parking ticket that was already printed out for me.

Naturally it was a moment where I face-palmed myself as I didn’t realize that I had a good thing in front of me already. I didn’t realize it because I was too caught up in working on obtaining it from step one when it was all ready for the taking at first sight.

So because I didn’t realize it in the beginning, I’m now down $5.00 and I’ve got two tickets in hand…. when all I really need is one.

I had the opportunity to take it at first sight but I didn’t because I didn’t realize it at that moment. And so it came to pass me by. I had the chance though to make it so no other man could have the opportunity, I could’ve shredded it, I could’ve thrown it away but I didn’t, I left it so that another man could have it.

Don’t be greedy and don’t be spiteful because of your lack of attention to detail. If you don’t take the opportunity then leave it for someone else to take.

And so I just left it there and walked away.