I remember back in elementary school and how we always had “Problem Solving” exercises but I was always the kid who absolutely hated them. I look back now though and it wasn’t the act of solving problems that I disliked but rather the fact that all “Problem Solving” questions were just Math questions.

I actually don’t mind solving problems even though I hated doing Problem Solving in school (and you may have as well) since we are all natural Problem Solvers when it comes to our own lives. Problem solving didn’t need to be taught to us in school as I believe we were already predisposed to solving them.

I think that most, if not all of us think about the Negatives or the Negative outcomes of a Problematic Situation before we even consider the notion of a Positive one. We think of what “the worst” could be so that we can motivate ourselves into doing the best we could  in order to ensure (to the best of our ability) that the final outcome is better that “the worst” we’ve thought of.

We then come up with different ways we could deal with the situation whether it be with our mindset or our actions in order to solve the problem and generate a favorable outcome.

We all do it. If you don’t have a job right now, the worst could be…. that you get evicted from your apartment or you starve to death or something worse, now that you know what could happen you try to solve this problem of being unemployed by applying for a job or jobs.

And if you’re hungry you go and eat because the problem is that you’re starving and the worst outcome is that you starve to death, so to solve it you go and eat.

As such, everyone Solves problems and is natural at it because every single day we are faced with things that we must deal with. We are natural Problem Solvers, especially when it deals with our own lives so maybe that’s why I wasn’t too good with problem solving questions at school. Either that, or I just didn’t think it was a problem.

Is what I tend to become regardless if it be in real life or in a video game.

In video games, I like to collect everything.

Who knows what lurks around the next corner?

Being prepared may save your life.

Also, collecting everything is great even if you don’t need it, why?

Because you can sell it and make some money, I mean this has to be the easiest way to get cash, collect shit and sell it.

Now in real life; I like to hold onto old receipts, school notes ( I still have my notes from elementary school), containers etc.

Unfortunately by doing this, some if not all of the stuff I hold onto in real life tend to be useless…. or so I thought.

About 4 years ago, my mother bought a Vitamix Blender for me because I said it was a good idea. We never used it too much over the years because we didn’t really see a need for it.

But now, I wind up using it once a day to make fruit shakes and recovery drinks. Sure it took me four years before I finally dug it out to use though when I needed it, it was there, ready for me.

It’s just being a Packrat isn’t a bad thing; you can keep collecting whatever the hell you want so long as you have enough space to store it and enough patience to wait for the day to use it.

Otherwise, don’t waste your time.

Hmmm…concerning my first love sounds quite vague, so I’ll take it in the direction that I want.

It was back in kindergarten and one night I had a dream solely about this one girl in my class, of course being that young and unsure of what love really was, I assumed that if my dream was focused solely on her then it must mean that I have some sort of attraction to her, some sort of fascination. So in a sense, she became my “First Love”, but then obviously it didn’t go very far and like how vague this question is, I vaguely remember her at all now.

My first kiss? Wasn’t as special as the way the media or society hyped it up as.

Then again, maybe it’s because it wasn’t given to a girl I completely loved. In hindsight though it was quite ironic that my first kiss was to a girl I liked back in Elementary School but back then we didn’t get close to kissing and now that we were older, she wasn’t the one I had any feelings for but yet we kissed.

It’s funny how the first time we do some things, they don’t turn out the way we’d think they would.

This was my first love and my first kiss, in a nutshell.

When I was first starting elementary school in grade one, I remember staring down the red and tan checkered hallway thinking to myself “Wow Six Years before I leave this place…that’s going to be such a long time!” But little did I know that as we grow older, time flies by quicker.

Now I’m in University and thinking back to that day in Elementary school, it just feels like it was only yesterday when really it’s been over 10 years. As time moves faster, years begin to feel like months, months like days, days like hours and hours like minutes.

I felt like the Fast Forward Button on my life was constantly being pressed, everything was happening so quickly, so fast that I found it hard to keep up.

“If I couldn’t keep up then what can I do? What should I do?” I thought to myself.

There is only one way; slow it down.

Slow it down to the point where your life is just on “Play” rather than “Fast Forward”. Time flies by quicker when you’re in your head like when you enjoy yourself playing games or doing what you like; the mind during then has no sense of time and so time “Fast Forwards” itself very easily.

But if I’m not enjoying myself and I’m just there in a “Coma” like state, I know that all I need to do is to just Kick myself out of my mind and into my body. With a Nap, some exercise, a ridiculous action that provides energy to me; Anything that will shock me out of my mind.

That way, when you’re in your body as in consciously being the one who controls your actions and not leaving them on “Autopilot” (like Adam Sandler in Click) is when you start to enjoy your experiences more.

So I do my best to stick to it, to stay in the present because that way I enjoy my experiences more.

Remember hearing those two words?

They’ve seemed to have crept through society and latched onto anyone who will listen but where did these words come from? …..No Clue, they’ve always just been there.

Though the truth is that yes people do change and yet they don’t just like how a person can be alive on the outside but dead on the inside; both are possible depending on who this person is.

After watching an old video my uncle found of when I was 4 years old, it gave me a sense of security and happiness. Not because of how happy I was back when I had no care in the world nor because my daily activities were only just Eat, Play and Sleep but because of the personality I had back then.

I was open to everyone, I’d chat with them no matter if they were the same age or if they were 30 years older than me, I treated them all the same and when I did I had so much fun with it. I was full of energy, I did what I wanted when I wanted because it felt good.

Seeing this video made me realize that I have finally come full circle with myself in terms of my personality. I’ve finally gone back to where I started after deviating from that path at the end of Elementary school and all the way up to Grade 11.

Change I can accept, but the change my personality went through was not one I could bear with. So I went back to who I am at the core, the open and fun loving personality that was evident in my childhood.

Seeing it with my own eyes makes it known that the way I’ve been lately means that I’ve reached the finish line of finding my own identity but that means that I’m also at the starting line for further developing it.

People.Change. but I was lucky enough that I didn’t need to, so I’m right back where I started.

And I’m happy with that.

Remember this expression?

“Always do the easy things first and then do the hard things last”

It was always told to us in school when we were doing our homework and before we wrote our exams. This was mainly because we wanted to finish things more efficiently and quickly, so ever since elementary school this phrase has been programmed into our minds

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